Boredom

Creeping up on you, like a stalker in the dark
Time just slowly ticks away, tearing you apart
Lying there in a trance, look what you've become
Useless to the world your life has come undone

Boredom, staring at the walls
Nothing really seems to change
When did life become so lame?
Time goes by, but it stays the same

Mind and body numb to the world, you just sit and stare  
Nothing going on inside, the TV is your only friend
Time passes by, and the hours seem like days
What the fuck is going on, soon I'll be insane

Can't sleep, can't think, so sick of everything
Patience only goes so far, what' will the future bring?
Tick  tock, tick fucking tock, over and over again
Everyday repeats itself, this shit has got to end

The Sickness Inside

There is a sickness inside, I can no longer hide

Its taking over everything that I cherish in life

Hatred and pain, devoured by rage

Watching my world as its burning in flames

There is this sickness inside

Fueled by the pain,all the  loss and the lies

There is this sickness inside

Keeping the hatred alive, my only reason for life

There's no way to conceal the hatred I feel

There's no way to deal with emotions so real

So many chances, forgiveness, regrets

So much time wasted, fucked up people I've met

Forgotten, forsaken, left to fend for my self

Time to unleash the pain, and the agony
 I feel it's taking over everything that' I feel inside

There is this sickness inside

Fueled by the pain,all the  loss and the lies

There is this sickness inside

Keeping the hatred alive, my only reason for life

There's no way to conceal the hatred I feel

There's no way to deal with emotions so real

So many chances, forgiveness, regrets

So much time wasted, fucked up people I've met

Forgotten, forsaken, left to fend for my self

Time to unleash the pain, and the agony  I felt 

Excuse Me(my First Attempt a t Electro Music)

How Quickly We Fall

Looking back I can’t believe the life I’ve left behind
Expectations and the goals I set quickly changed with time
The life I planned differs from the life I lived,everything has changed
The hardest thing to except, is I’m the only one to blame

I know where I went wrong, I just can’t explain why
Life seem to hold the answers, all I had to do was try
I let disappointment discourage me, from all that I desired
I lost the will to carry on, my life is uninspired

It’s been so long and I fallen so far, I’m no longer in control
I’ve stared into the face of death, as it ripped into my soul
I climbed back up just to lose again, will I ever reach my goal?
I don’t know how to ask for help, I’ll just let my life unfold

Desire and drive, a passion for life, who can predict their fate?
The more shit life throws at you,the more you can relate
Everyone’s there to give advice and let you know the deal
Until they lose everything, they”ll never know how it feels

Tell me what it takes to be happy, I’ve heard it all before
Give me the skills to cope and I’ll destroy my life some more
The harder I try to live life right, the more it knocks me down
My soul was lost years ago, just bury me in the ground

LifeTime

There was a time in my life
 I cared about what others thought
Choices in life were centered around
Pleasing everybody but myself

I knew what I wanted, but it didn't make sense
People were always telling me I had to change
I gave into their shit, and started living a lie
My values were compromised
Everyone was happy, except for me
My life turned to misery

I stopped caring about what people thought
I told everyone to just fuck off
This is my life, I won't compromise
I'm sick of living for someone else

Now I am free, I've got to be me
I've got my life and my morality
I no longer care, or live with despair
Fuck you, if you don't think it's fair
This is my life, you have no right
Stop trying to make me change
I tried it your way, felt nothing but shame
I'm sick of the heart ache and pain

One Last Fall

All the pain and the shame that the drugs represent
Falling and Crawling into a fucked up life of descent
Cracked up, Smacked up, you have no will to fight
Don't care, if it's fair, this shit takes over your life

Get clean for the dream, then it all just falls apart
Fucking junkie so unlucky, right back to the start
Rip a hole in your soul, for a life that can't exist
One more hit, shoot more shit, no way to resist

Sobriety keeps calling, but you keep falling
Into the pain, to the needle your chained
It only takes time,till the drugs make you blind
It's a habit again, say goodbye to your friends
Nobody cares, a junkies life is despair
Don't be mislead cause your already dead 

One last fall, you fucking junkie
Why can't you see
One last fall, you fucking junkie
What has happened to me?
One last fall, you fucking junkie 
You new all the risks
One last fall, you fucking junkie
You won't even be missed

Destiny

Staring out into the distance, I think of what could be
Is there a point to all this madness, what's our destiny?
Normal life seems so strange, it's the same thing everyday
People don't even notice, when their dreams start to fade

Conforming to a system, that's designed for us to fail
People that are remembered, have paved their own trail
Being pushed out for having our own morals and beliefs
Instead of believing all the bullshit, let others be deceived 

I remember in my past, when the future looked so bright
That time is behind me now and I still try to do things right
Even though I expected to have all the fortune and the fame
If I had to do it all again, I think it would turn out the same 

Regrets are part of life, we must learn from our mistakes
Even though we want it all, there must be give and take
Shit happens for some reason, many just think it's fate
It either makes your life or destroys you with hate