Unlock the Rage

I always try to help out, whenever I can

It's just something you can't understand

I've tried to tell you, again and again

You live to destroy everything that has been

Chorus:

You just keep pushing me, it's complete misery

Why can't you see what your doing to me

You unlock the rage, just another day

Your always trying to control what I do or I say

Anytime I'm happy, you take that away

Making me feel stupid with every word I say

I've never had someone as fucked up as you

It doesn't even matter what I say or I do

Always pushing buttons,life is a game

Trying to convince me that I'm not sane

Before I met you, everything was fine

One more day and I'm gonna lose my mind

So many people, why did I meet you

I can't believe the shit, you put me through

The hurt and the pain, the lies you portray

My life is getting worse with everyday

So just let me free, from all the agony

I beg and I plead, condemned to misery

Where can I find, what is left of my mind

Now is the time to leave your hatred behind

Crushed and Gone

My whole life I didn't care about tomorrow
20 years down and I've lost my way
All my memories consumed by sorrow
I fear that life has gone astray

It's hard to think about a future
If you're worried about making it through a day
Nobody really cares until it's over
And with time that will all just fade away

So many mistakes I keep on living
All of my dreams are crushed and gone
I find it hard to keep up the image
Everyday it gets harder just to carry on

So much potential, just follow your heart
Thrown into a world to be torn apart
No one can live on their hopes and their dreams
Reality has a way of stripping them clean

Do What I Can

Walking down the street one day
Thinking about shit &  I must say
I want to be better, live life for me
What the fuck am I suppose to be?

Yesterday's gone, that I can't change
I don't fucking care, I'm not the same
I live life for me & the things I love
Time to be myself and rise above

Chorus:
Darkness from light, day turns to night
Do what I can to live my life right
Mental, Insane, fucked in the brain
Do what I can to escape all the pain

Living this life, I search for a way
Keep it together & struggling each day
Try to stand tall, escape my past life
I refuse to give in without a fight

Tomorrow, what does the future hold?
Destiny & fate, I watch it all unfold
It's gonna be hard but I must survive
Fuck all this shit, fucking with my life!!! 

Boredom

Creeping up on you, like a stalker in the dark
Time just slowly ticks away, tearing you apart
Lying there in a trance, look what you've become
Useless to the world your life has come undone

Boredom, staring at the walls
Nothing really seems to change
When did life become so lame?
Time goes by, but it stays the same

Mind and body numb to the world, you just sit and stare  
Nothing going on inside, the TV is your only friend
Time passes by, and the hours seem like days
What the fuck is going on, soon I'll be insane

Can't sleep, can't think, so sick of everything
Patience only goes so far, what' will the future bring?
Tick  tock, tick fucking tock, over and over again
Everyday repeats itself, this shit has got to end

The Sickness Inside

There is a sickness inside, I can no longer hide

Its taking over everything that I cherish in life

Hatred and pain, devoured by rage

Watching my world as its burning in flames

There is this sickness inside

Fueled by the pain,all the  loss and the lies

There is this sickness inside

Keeping the hatred alive, my only reason for life

There's no way to conceal the hatred I feel

There's no way to deal with emotions so real

So many chances, forgiveness, regrets

So much time wasted, fucked up people I've met

Forgotten, forsaken, left to fend for my self

Time to unleash the pain, and the agony
 I feel it's taking over everything that' I feel inside

There is this sickness inside

Fueled by the pain,all the  loss and the lies

There is this sickness inside

Keeping the hatred alive, my only reason for life

There's no way to conceal the hatred I feel

There's no way to deal with emotions so real

So many chances, forgiveness, regrets

So much time wasted, fucked up people I've met

Forgotten, forsaken, left to fend for my self

Time to unleash the pain, and the agony  I felt 

How Quickly We Fall

Looking back I can’t believe the life I’ve left behind
Expectations and the goals I set quickly changed with time
The life I planned differs from the life I lived,everything has changed
The hardest thing to except, is I’m the only one to blame

I know where I went wrong, I just can’t explain why
Life seem to hold the answers, all I had to do was try
I let disappointment discourage me, from all that I desired
I lost the will to carry on, my life is uninspired

It’s been so long and I fallen so far, I’m no longer in control
I’ve stared into the face of death, as it ripped into my soul
I climbed back up just to lose again, will I ever reach my goal?
I don’t know how to ask for help, I’ll just let my life unfold

Desire and drive, a passion for life, who can predict their fate?
The more shit life throws at you,the more you can relate
Everyone’s there to give advice and let you know the deal
Until they lose everything, they”ll never know how it feels

Tell me what it takes to be happy, I’ve heard it all before
Give me the skills to cope and I’ll destroy my life some more
The harder I try to live life right, the more it knocks me down
My soul was lost years ago, just bury me in the ground

LifeTime

There was a time in my life
 I cared about what others thought
Choices in life were centered around
Pleasing everybody but myself

I knew what I wanted, but it didn't make sense
People were always telling me I had to change
I gave into their shit, and started living a lie
My values were compromised
Everyone was happy, except for me
My life turned to misery

I stopped caring about what people thought
I told everyone to just fuck off
This is my life, I won't compromise
I'm sick of living for someone else

Now I am free, I've got to be me
I've got my life and my morality
I no longer care, or live with despair
Fuck you, if you don't think it's fair
This is my life, you have no right
Stop trying to make me change
I tried it your way, felt nothing but shame
I'm sick of the heart ache and pain

Fighting For Life

Fighting for life at the end of the rope
Nothing to lose, you’ve lost all hope 
No one will help a person so wrong
No one will care when you are gone

You lived your life without having a care
Robbing and stealing causing despair
You always take, with nothing to give
Now you’ll die the way you lived

It was all bound to catch up one day
With all the people that you betrayed
Now its too late, too late for remorse
Fate has caught up and taken its course

You should have thought about your life
Given back to others and done what’s right
Now it’s too late and your wondering why
No one will care when it’s your turn to die.

I Don't Care

So many years just a different day
Hopeless existence, I've lost my way
Feeling so low, lost everything inside
Watching my life as it passes me by

I once lived a life with promise and hope
Till I lost all my will and forgot how to cope
No matter how I try, I can't shake my past
My dreams were taken and smashed

Slowly time passes, loneliness is my home
Now I live my life, so useless and alone
Ive tried and I've tried just to break free
I don't even care what becomes of me

Writing Poetry (tips & Tricks)

      O.k, let me just start out by saying that these are just a couple of ideas that I use when trying to write poetry. I don't use any of these ideas with every poem all of the time, in fact most are just techniques I started to do when I got all caught up on being "Mr. Perfect!!!" 
       I find a lot of the time I am trying to push my writing(like now). I have a small idea and I try to make it into a masterpiece!!! My favorite time to write, is when I have nothing going on in my head(which lately has been happening a lot more) and all of the sudden this great idea appears out of no where. This rarely happens, but when it does....it is MAGICAL!!!! The poem or Blog almost writes itself. My biggest problem with this, is that I don't know where to end it. I'll have this great poem or story and then I try to fatten it up with a bunch of jibber-jabber.
      I would say that probably 75-85% of my poetry is one great verse. Then I start to fluff it up by using one of the techniques I am about to show you. Hell, sometimes all I have is the tittle, which means that the whole piece is fluff!! It's all about how you want the piece to be. I mean is it a poem that tells a story, does it rhyme, and how does it rhyme? Is every line gonna rhyme with the next or is it every other line? If you want, you can even have the words rhyme within the same line. Or maybe just the last line in every or every other verse. The choices are unlimited!!! I think the thing that took me the longest to figure out was, this is "MY" poem, and I can write it how ever I want!!!! Unless of coarse it is an assignment or for some contest, but that is a whole different scenario anyways, if that is what you are into, then that is awesome!!!! Just make sure that the end result is for you and not someone else.
      Some people are born with the talent to write and then others have to work their whole lives for it and still never grasp how to write. I was one of the lucky ones, I guess. Writing to me was second nature, well, that is until I tried to force it. Then I dried up and stopped writing all together, but that too has passed(I hope). Well, look... all this rambling an nothing about how to write, maybe it was all a lie and I have no technique!!!! AHAHAHAHA, it's all just a way to get people to read my blogs!!!! AHAHAHAHA. O.K., seriously now, I will get down to business.
      My first technique has to do with rhyming. When I get stuck on a word and I want to find something to rhyme it with, I just start with the first letter of the alphabet and work down. Lets take the word "PAIN" (my favorite word, I even have it tattooed on my right forearm{I'm not even joking, "SORROW" is on the other arm, but this isn't a blog about tattoos..so I digress}) for instance.  I take the word "PAIN" and start at the top. "A" doesn't work, so I move on to "B" bane, doesn't work either, but "Brain" might, or even "Blame." What's the reason I have all this pain...In my brain? Obviously, you are the only one to "Blame!!"
     Then you can keep going, if you are satisfied with "B" then move on to "C." Your the only one to blame, you tied me up, I can't break your "Chains." Then you can move on to "D" I can't break these chains, my love was drained.
     So then you generally want to skip A,E,I,O,U, but not always, like I said, this is your poem, if it works then use it!!! So next comes "F." Maybe you want to do it every other line(this is all off of the top of my head, so bare with me!!) My love for you was drained, I no longer have a soul, Consumed by your flames, Into the darkness, Paradise will never be the same. 
     O.K., see, I skipped around. I mainly only use this technique when I get stuck. Most of the time, I try to rely on the feeling of the poem or story to carry me through. That of coarse was just a simple example, but I think I made my point. It is all about context and content. Don't rely on some trick to make you think you are some great writer all of the sudden. Everyone(including me) wants the easy solution to everything. Just because it works, doesn't mean it will always work!!! Every poem must start with a feeling or good idea.
     I must be honest though, and tell you, I really have a hard time reading poetry, because to me it is just a bunch of words put together. I know it sounds bad, but it is true. Don't get me wrong, words mean everything to me and that is what really captured my heart about music. I just have a hard time reading other people's writings. I just think that in order to really understand the feelings and soul of the writer, they must be the one to read it!!!! That is why, when you find that one great song that just speaks right to you, nothing is better. It lets you know that there are other people out there that are going through your pain and feeling the same way that you do. Sometimes, they might even help you to pull through it or understand why things are the way they are.
     My next biggest tip happens when you get stuck on a word and you've gone through the whole alphabet and have come up with nothing!! My favorite thing about words is that there are so many words that mean the same thing. Take the sentence, "I'm riding in my car." That can be switched so many ways "Traveling in my car", "Driving in my car" just plain "we were in my car" and so on. Most of the time, if I can't find something to rhyme, I'll just go back and change the last word, so Instead of "Driving in my car" I'll say, "In my car we were riding" so now, I can go through the alphabet and try to find something to rhyme with "Riding"  or maybe I'll leave "Car" out completely, "We were cruising along just the other day", so see, the possibilities are endless!!
      My last tip, is probably the best tip of all and the simplest!!! If you are really stuck on something and just not feeling it at all, then stop!!! Don't give up and DON'T... I REPEAT DON'T throw it away!!!! I know it's easy to get discouraged and think it completely sucks, which by the way, I have done so many times, it is sickening!!!! But don't do it!!! Just stop, take a break, maybe take a week, a month or however long it takes!!! I've gone back years after starting something and found I had actually written some pretty awesome, a little tweaking and it turned out to be some of my best stuff!!! It might have had a completely different meaning by then, but it still turned out great!!! Whatever you do, don't throw it away, well unless it really sucks, then it's O.K. to ditch it!!!! AHAHAHAHA just kidding. The thing is, you started this writing because of an idea or a feeling. So if you give it some time, the idea or feeling might get stronger and the words might just start to flow the next time you sit down and write.
    Good luck, I think you can take it from here, just remember that writing is just a way to express your feelings. A way to make a connection with other people that might be going through the same thing you are. Maybe it's something you've already conquered and there is someone out there right now, trying to make it through the same thing. Whatever you do, don't write because you feel it is what someone else wants!!! I mean, of coarse there will be assignments and stuff, but do them because you want to, not because you have to. Life is all about perspective!!! When I was growing up, I remember everyone always dreaded the writing assignments!!! Not me, I thrived on them!!! Spelling and vocabulary are a different situation all together, my spelling and grammar are horrible, thank GOD FOR SPELLCHECK!!!!! Take it easy, writing can be fun!!! Not to mention a great way to get out bottled up emotions. If it wasn't for writing, I would probably be in a mental hospital right now!!!!(not that I'm too far off as we speak)

Poetry and Other Stories

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Breaking Free

What the fuck do you want from me
I'm not your hired help
Your always coming down on me
Only thinking about yourself


It doesn't matter how much I do
You're always expecting more
Trying so to control my life
I can't take it anymore


Pushing down on me
You think I can't see
What your doing to me
Now I'm breaking free
From all your fucking greed